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[23 Jan 2005|06:23pm]
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[23 Jan 2005|06:21pm]
I like to express myself ,either in photographs or drawing.Poetry is just not my thing.
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[21 Jan 2005|10:36pm]

love is...getting out of bed when you call me.kissing you with my stinky breath in the morning.crying on your shoulder when everything seems to have taken a wrong turn.what fuels me to go to school every day. giving up my seat for you. cooking you food when youre over my house .walking naked with no strings attached.everything I feel when I'm with you and everything.I miss when I'm not.I love more and more each day. I AM the the luckiest girl on earth.

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[21 Jan 2005|10:17pm]

I'm Amliv.I'm seventeen.
I'm dorky yet bitchy.Outspoken.bold. very shy around people I dont know.
My girlfriend is my best friend.I am only here to have fun.
Not to hook up "meet" somewhere,etc.
I love smiling. *But doubt you will see a Smiling photo of me*
I have huge love for individuals.
I could spend the most 15 minutes getting ready to go out.
I'm a fucking perfectionist with anything im really into.
I will not give you an audience for your drama .
I am a scorpio , I will not be altered.
I'm not a people person in real life, but the internet is a different thing.I am very open minded.
Creativity comes in the middle of the night for me. Any lies you spew will not effect me
I look at everyone i meet, straight in the eye. Fetish?
Drawing is my Passion.
Creating is my art.
dont really have a favorite band, I listen to whatever Im in the food for.
I am picky.
I dont have favorite brands , I could care less.
Red Exudes Passion .
Im a big nerd, I watch the discovery channel and play video games.
I dont party, I barely drink, I dont smoke or do drugs.
Lol I have a thing for telling people how I feel about them right in their face.Or what they have on their face.
I also have no shame in asking someone a question ,even if I dont know them.
I dont believe in the invisible man ..



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[09 Jan 2005|10:52pm]

In my restless dreams, I see that town. Silent Hill. You promised you'd take me there again
someday. But you never did. Well I'm alone there now... In our "special place"... Waiting for you... Waiting for you to come to see me. But you never do and so I wait, wrapped in my caccoon of pain and loneliness. I know I've done a tarable thing to you, something you'll never forgive me for. I wish I could change that but I can't. I feel so pathetic and ugly laying here, waiting for you. Every day I stair up at the cracks in the ceiling and all I can think about is how unfair it all is. The doctor came today, he told me I could go home for a short stay. Its not that I am getting
better, its just that this maybe my last chance, I think you know
what I mean. Even so I am glad to be coming home I've missed you tarably but... I'm afraid James, I'm afraid you don't really want me to come home.When ever you come see me I can tell how hard it is on you. I don't know if you hate me or pitty me or maybe i discust you. I'm sorry about that. When I first learned I was going to die, I just didn't want to except it. I was so angry all the time and I struck out at everyone I loved most, especially you James. Thats why I understand if you do hate me but I want you to know this James. I'll always love you. Even though our life together had to end like this. I still wouldn't trade it for the world. We had some wonderful years together. Well, this letter has gone on to long, so I'll say goodbye. told the nurse to give this to you after I'm gone, that means that as you read this I'm already dead. I can't tell you to remember me but I can't bare for you to forget me these last few years since I became ill. I am so sorry for what I did to you, did to us. You've given me so much and I haven't been able to return a single thing. Thats why I
want you to live, for yourself now. Do whats best for you James.
James... you made me happy.

-Silent Hill 2

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[28 Dec 2004|07:42pm]
i love her.
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VENTING [19 Dec 2004|04:07pm]

Dont leave me messages "get back at me" or "Holla back" , boy please you are not 50 cent.

And Girls just because I think youre pretty , does not mean you have to be vain about it.
I cant stand carbon copied tony hawk motherfuckers .
If you mean something , stick by it.
I hate it when people judge without knowing me as a person.
Dont sweet talk me into shit.Chances are I'll consider you an asshole.Youll have better chances in taking your grandmother out for a sweet dinner and a movie.or getting hit by a truck .
Dont call me babe, thats a pigs name.
If you care to have a decent conversation , Im me.Dont Im me to say WAZZZAA or "youre hot".
Drama is unnecessary.This is a site to have fun and meet people.<3

I hate it when you post in peoples pages and they dont reply.But love it when they post a bulleting about it.

Dont add me without sending me a message first.I dont know you.

Yes Im a fake and dont you just hate me for it? AHH LOVELY



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[17 Dec 2004|12:38pm]

I am my own worst Critic

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[17 Dec 2004|12:32pm]

In the Words of My Lovely  Rosie <3

Fuck homophobes
Fuck the ppl that dont like me and dont even kno me
Fuck them do u think they actually give a shyt about you fuck no all they fucking care about is the fucking money they aint gonna make the world a better fucking place for u there not gonna get you more money
Fuck ppl who think they own you
Fuck ppl who cry about how crappy there lives is and dont realize that they make it that fucking way
Fuck Florida for not being a better state
Fuck lawyers those pussy ass motherfuckers that suck ppl fucking dry
Fuck cops there never around when there needed
Fuck corrupt cops that fucking violate our trust
Fuck this government for fucking telling you that you have freedom of speech but when they hear someone screaming fuck bush or some other shyt they tell you can get arrested
Fuck the freedom of speech im suppose to have ,you make a statement and people try to bite your head off.
Fuck Authority
Fuck ppl who think you have to graduate to make something of yourself
Fuck tmobile for false adverstisement
Fuck ANIMAL CRUELTY thats just wrong
Fuck london for me not being able to live there
Fuck money for ruling the world
Fuck the news ,they never give you the right information or the whole story
Fuck ppl who just sing and make millions out of it while there are starving kids in Africa
Fuck ppl who expect so much from me
Fuck being depressed
Fuck perky ppl
Fuck not being able to sleep
Fuck politics
Fuck priest that stick their hands in an innocent childs pants
Fuck stalkers
Fuck not having a car
Fuck ppl who blame shyt on other ppl
Fuck ppl who go out of there way just to prove you wrong
Fuck ppl who like watching you fall
Fuck ppl who think fuck is such a strong word
Fuck black ppl that swear there all hard slavery ended 127 years ago get over it bitch
Fuck ppl that make my friends cry
Fuck ppl that call u and ask whos this i dunno motherfucker you called me
Fuck ppl who im you and do the same shyt
Fuck me for getting pissed so easily
Fuck weed its an expensive habit
Fuck jerry springer piece of shyt of a show
Fuck ppl who just stare at meFuck ppl that judge me
Fuck ppl who are gonna get offended by this well fuck you bitch im speaking my mind
Fuck crying
Fuck ppl that want to feel special but do nothing to make you feel special
Fuck that say that nobody loves em wtf bro someones always gonna care about u you just dont kno it
Fuck stuck up bitches

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[28 Nov 2004|03:20pm]

i just want to be somebody's one and only. i want to be the most beautiful girl in the world in someone's eyes. i don't want to take a backseat to cross-country flings that don't mean a thing and fleeting flirtations. i want to make someone's heart race. i want to know that someone adores ME. i want a song written about me. i want handwritten love notes. i want spontaneity. i want acknowledgement. i want to be recognized as that lucky other half of that beautiful untouchable couple. i want to be adored. i want to be loved more than cigarettes and booze and sex. i want to be chased. i want to not have to run. i want my heart to be mended. i want love, not conditions. i want to be kissed instead of kicked. i want to spoon while sleeping. i want fingers intertwining mine while i'm in the hospital pushing out my baby. i want fireworks. i want someone's eyes to sparkle with my reflection. i want to make someone happy, instead of annoyed. i want someone to think it's cute when i attempt to cook and nearly burn the house down. i want someone to laugh at my lame attempts at humor. i want picnics under the stars. i want people to see me coming and say "she must be amazing". i want to be serenaded. i want us against the world, instead of me versus you. i want late night pizza runs. i want my tears to be kissed away. i want secret makeout spots. i want to be kissed every day like it's the first time. i want to hold hands while walking around downtown. i want a family. i want to read my child bedtime stories together. i want to be a wonderful mommy and wife, and i want to be reminded of it often. i want to cry tears of happiness instead of tears of sorrow. i want phone calls just to say "i love you". i want hearts scribbled on a refrigerator dry erase board, followed by "have a good day, (honey, sugar, baby, sweetie)". i want a picture perfect romance, even if no one else thinks it is. i want you to rush home just to see my face. i want to curl up on the couch and watch cartoons. i want the promise of forever. i want to be needed.


I've found that person.<3

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[20 Nov 2004|08:22pm]
and there is nothing better than watching your face light up as I walk byand i've gotta be honest, i've been waiting for you all my life.  

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Baby Doll [24 Aug 2004|03:17pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

baby doll, you sent me down memory lane- i love you for it always- cuz it's good to remember or it'll just come back in some other form.
i know what you are talking about...
it's been almost a fucking year and i am still recovering from all her damage. reissue repackage regret repent try again die again never gone fuck i know it has me pinned every minute of every day my world stopped spinning but my head spins all sorts of sadness ..
she's never gonna be "the one" again
the world wasn't made for happy endings. it was made for new creations.

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[23 Aug 2004|08:20pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I hate not talking to you. I hate it when you are not here to make me smile. I hate it when I feel like you are hurting and I am powerless to stop the pain. I hate not being able to touch your face. I hate not having you around every second of my day. I hate not being able to hear every laugh you make. I hate not being able to look at you, and have you know exactly what I am thinking. I hate that when you are hurting, I can feel it. I hate that I care for you so much and that I consider you my soul mate.I hate that I am afraid you will hurt me. I hate that you might not remember that you are supposed to be my best friend, as long as I live..

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[23 Aug 2004|04:01pm]
[ mood | sad ]

You! who is standing upon my grave.

Don’t wonder too much about my state.

Yesterday I was just like you,

And tomorrow you will be just like me.

Now that is a girl that has a sense of humor about her death. I could imagine the girl laughing as she was being buried. I wonder how many people, like me, left that cemetery with a smile on their face.


++Argh today was stressful.Things at home are hard, blah blah *dont wanna talk about it*..another point about myself since im a self centered  bitch, I dont know how to talk to people without  getting mad if i dont get what i want.I dont think i should be giving anyone an explanation about the actions that I take.

I guess i want to be a grown up ahead of time? w/e bro. fuck it . i do good in school and thats what i strive for .

I can’t understand why a religion would choose a torture and execution device as its universal symbol.

Just had to say something about that shit too , i guess

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[22 Aug 2004|09:11pm]
[ mood | weird ]

dont judge me tomorrow by the way im acting today

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Its Dr.Seuss Day For Me [22 Aug 2004|10:52am]
[ mood | weird ]

I think people should be allowed to do anything they want. We haven't tried that for a while. Maybe this time it'll work.

I recently went to a new doctor and noticed he was located in something called the Professional Building. I felt better right away.


I specialize in strange cuisine And so I built a big machine I use it almost every day At Sam-I-Am's Green Egg Cafe. --------------------------------------- Lmao and for the past replys to carlos, im not gonna waste my time replying to you ,its childish and immature from your part. also the bitch thing yea , thats really mature of you.youre a mutt and i really dont care . have a good life.tOodlez
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[22 Aug 2004|02:25am]
[ mood | loved ]

Life is a drama, Don't be one of the underpaid actors.

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[21 Aug 2004|05:58pm]
[ mood | happy ]

She is self-centered. -
She criticizes everything about you.
She expects to be treated like a queen.
She slights you in bed.
She treats people like trash.
She never pays.
She bosses you around.
She embarrasses you in public.
She flirts with other men.

I can be self centered , i do criticize, i dont expect to be treated like a queen i rather just die.I dont slight anyone in bed if its not my girlfriend.I dont treat people like trash unless they do something shitty to me.I do pay , rarely lmao but i pay.( hey im least im honest , which is more than I can say about you). I do boss people around. I dont embarrass anyone in public and I dont flirt like a little slut tryin to get some pussy or cock.

I’m just a bitch and life is a nighmare
I’m just a bitch and I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cause I’m alone and the world
Is havin’ more fun then me. LMAO

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[19 Aug 2004|09:06pm]
[ mood | horny ]

MY SNAGGLEPUSS!! aww he was feeling bad... :( I hope he gets betta.*MUAHZ I LUV YOU!<3 youre my world .

School tomorrow , YAY, and JJ YAY! WEeeeeeeeee Im iN LOoooooooooooOOove!

I should be a sex therapist*.

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You are my only one [19 Aug 2004|05:04pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Secretly sharing sweet I love yous
I kiss your lips and taste some heaven
steadily singing songs with my heart
I let you listen when wrapped in my arms

Loving the way life looks with you
I bite my lip and pray this lasts
Longing for love to linger longer
I reach out to you with hands pristine

The haunting hurt has healed now
Looking in your eyes I feel renewed
Happy when here holding your heart
I promise better care for it than for mine

Burying bad memories brought by old loves
you seem to erase it all with three words
bringing back happiness by caring for me
I love you with love almost too sweet .


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